Clear Intentions

 

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There is a healer in one of my groups who never fails to pull cards that resonate with me. This is the same woman who pulled the card I posted before. I am sure trying to attract what I want. On a friend’s suggestion, I began a Manifestation 100 two weeks ago and have had a fitful time keeping up and playing the game. I hope to hit that hard in the coming weeks now that school is out for summer.

I have now gone from being the top candidate for a position to not getting the job TWICE in a couple weeks’ time. My intention is off, I know it, I just don’t know how to fix it! It’s complicated! We want to move and to find a good neighborhood and a comfortable school environment for me where I am appreciated and valued and not overlooked. Our home is for sale because we got that initial offer. Our open house was last weekend. Love this house but it’s time to leave. Have applications in here locally for leadership positions, also in Denver, Colorado and Austin, Texas area.

“Gotta get clear about this.”

Those were my thoughts last week after I got the call that the principal recommended another candidate. This is the same school where I had been the number one candidate on Tuesday but that a last minute internal candidate applied and, well, I was not the one recommended fro the job. Turns out the high school position opened up in the same area and so my name will be passed along for that.

During my time away from writing (two weeks), I have also spent a bit of time on a Facebook group for empaths. I ordered a book from a woman in the UK and when it arrived, it came with some special bonus materials.

Paulo Coelho’s The Alchemist was included. This happens to be one of my newest favorite books. I read it about four or five years ago but I have checked it out from the library and had not been able to mark it as my own. I look forward to re-reading it from this place along my path. And having read Warrior of the Light.

Additionally, it came with a card:

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I know this is why these positions have not fallen within my grasp. They are not the ones meant for me. I know I need to get clear.

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This is why I have not written in a while. Couple the intensity of these situations with also interviewing in my own district and finishing out one of the most stressful school years on my record…and I am TIRED. I decide to lay low and not push against the world.

 

I interviewed in my own district, for what it is worth. It’s been an interesting experience. I’m gaining confidence through every interview, no matter it has been (here, Colorado and Austin) and I am able to imagine a life in many different places. I have been afforded the time to think through this and make a solid decision as things come to me. I am grateful for the clarity that abstaining from drinking has given me. I have permission to explore my feelings again.

 

Just Wednesday night I got an email from that same principal saying that it might be a long shot, but that there is an English position in his middle school and he wondered if I might be interested in applying.

I took this opportunity to apply immediately and also to locate the high school position and apply for that one as well. I am still not certain why no one has contacted me in regards to the high school theatre position I applied for when I applied for the middle school job, BUT – CLEARLY this district has many positions for which I am qualified. It is a lovely location – near my parents and my brother and in a quaint town that’s just over “too small.”

The Colorado River runs through it. Are you listening to the words coming out of my fingers here? There are at least two yoga studios in the town. Haha! It just all seems pretty cool to explore…

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